Busy

Every minute that you
CHOOSE
not to spend with
Her (who was once the angel of your world)
is GONE
like dandilion wishes in the
Chinook
You will never get it back
or collect at a later date
because it is a debt that is not owed to you
It is a debt you have accumulates
but that
She will pay.

Narcissistic You

Not everything is
About you
Right now
Can you not see that
I have had
Significant losses that
Supercede the loss of you
In fact although
Sometimes I cry
Tears for the loss of US
I also cry for deeper hurt and loss but you
Can only see

YOU

Chasing Shadows

As I sort through the remains of
almost twenty years
Eye
see images and reminders that
Eye
try to bring into focus
in my Minds I
but all I see are shadows cast
by the sun at midday
barely perceiveable around the
object that has cast it.



But is the play of light and dark
a ghost or a halo?

A spectre of something dead and gone
or
the holy evidence of the Divine?

Lust

What is that feeling
stirring where none was
for what seems like so long?

An animal heat that has
NOTHING to do with
intimacy or love or trust
&
EVERYTHING to do with
want and need and urge.