She Knows NO. . .

"You never say no to her"
or so it seems. . .

But yes I do
the BIG
NO
writ larger than
those about
things
and adventures
and fun

The BIG NO
was said
to her
NO
you do not get
parents who show you how to LOVE
in the way that lasts
FOR
ever

No - to family camping trips
No - to embarassment from parental kisses in front
of friends
No - to honouring promises
No - to working out what does not work
and replacing it with something that does
No - to starting back at square ONE and rebuilding
if that is
what it takes

She has had too many of the BIG ones

No - your grandpa is gone and isn't coming back
No - your grandma is gone and isn't coming back
NO YOUR SAFE FAMILY IS GONE
and isn't coming back

So, as I see it
there are not enough YESes to make up
for that. . .
She already knows NO